As the years passed me, I now value solitude more than social interaction seriously. I now understand why the old people seemed to carry the universe on their back when I was much younger. To be honest, it is heavier than I expected it truly is. I never crave big birthday parties anymore, no more festival gatherings.
I just want a New Year alone, with pizza and the kids.
I just want a coffee date with myself, only thinking of what to read or write later.
I just want to sleep all day imagine that seems like I haven't slept past 7 a.m. in 18 years.
I just want someone to tell about my side on a political drama.
I just want to plant cacti on Sundays.
I just want to… be me again… but me is who I became and it took so much to truly get to this place along lives journey.
I know now what the value of friendship and companionship are; I should have given them to deserving people, not just random strangers but looking back I truly don't regret a thing. I should have given a lot of that love that I gave so freely to others to myself but at that time I so pose they needed it a little more than I did. I should have said “no” when I felt I should or said “yes” when I thought I must. Those mistakes where just lives experiences and they didn't lose me a lot of people, but I know it is for the better now. I know that people are just phases of the moon, they appear full then one night they fade away and a few of them stick around and shine. And for a few friends I have, I am grateful. And, to the rest I found peace in departure.
Love, Light & Lip Gloss
Inspired By Abby
Written By Crystal
Love, Light & Lip Gloss
Crystal Cailleach 🔮